a few days ago
i received a message in the mail
a letter by my former self
journaling about my previous tribulations
as i read the faded ink
i retreated to a time where
i hid in the shadows
background noise that filled up everywhere
yet nowhere at all
i was a filler for my classrooms
contributing to a quota and a daily school check
listened to alternative music
to channel the angst
that i held inside
the letter was an ode
to where i could not speak
only expressing my feelings
in the form of destruction
today i write
to send an ode
to my former self
i love her
but she doesnt love me, too